Beautiful Mystery

I can’t look at you
with out feeling undeserving
How is it that you care about me?
How did I make you care this much?
I shouldn’t question something so great
So just this once I’ll sit back
and accept the beautiful mystery  

Blinded by the light from eyes 
that long to gaze back into mine
you cried in my car
I didn’t notice until you told me
you said  “All I want is for your arms to hold me”

"You’re so worth all of this torture."

— "Rare" - Man Overboard

"If I was without you even more than I already have to be it would be a catastrophe."

— "Mathematics" - Front Page

We Didn’t Kiss

“I don’t know what it is,
But when you have your
arm around me
I just want to kiss you”

I couldn’t believe it
I really couldn’t
So I just didn’t say anything

We both laid there in the dark
Wondering what this meant
We had been just friends for so long
And though I had always
Had strong feelings for her
They had always been repressed

This was a dream
It had to be
There was no way she had just told me
That she wanted to kiss me

I was truly speechless

“Trav?”

I tried my best to say something
I needed time to process this
I needed to figure out what was going on

“We can’t kiss” I said

There was no way
That I could kiss her
She had told me a few months back
That she wasn’t going to kiss another guy
Until she knew it was the guy
She would marry.

I wanted to be him

I was so scared
That if we kissed I would be
Just another guy
And I refused to let that happen.
So as we laid there
Just the two of us
Is a small cabin
On Lake Plantagenet
With nobody around
We didn’t have sex
We didn’t make out
We didn’t kiss
We cuddled

And I told her
That since I had met her
I’d thought about her
Every single day
I told her I was crazy about her
I told her that she was beautiful
And funny
And intelligent
And honestly, perfect.

Different Weather

I left everything in the driveway
When reality hadn’t sunken in yet
I should’ve kissed you
I should have taken the risk

And now it’s how many months
Until we fall asleep together?
So far away
Different time zones
Different weather
I told myself I could handle this
You said the same thing
Now I lie in my bed
Every night
Waiting for the phone to ring

This town depresses me
Their loose morals and apathy
 I can’t stand these parties
Can’t stand anything about this place
When you were here
I could handle anything
Your presence was enough
But now I feel like
I’m dissolving

Come share these sheets with me
And help me understand
How there’s serenity in
Just holding your hand
How I see everything
That means anything
When I’m looking in your eyes

I would’ve rather taken a bullet
Then force out those goodbyes.

"There literally are no words I can say right now. You’re incredible and seriously Travis, I never want to be without you … ever."

— The Girl I Write All My Poetry About

"I want to date you. Point blank. And not being able to is indescribably awful."

— The girl I write all my poetry about

"I looked up at your window, pretended I could see you. You don’t live there anymore."

— "Earl Grey" - Basement

The 4th

Apprehensively I await your call.
My phone hasn’t moved
but I check it anyway.

I want to see fireworks
The real kind;
the kind that you see in the sky.
but fireworks are boring for you

you’re too use to seeing them
when you look me in the eyes
so you never called

The explosions proceeded
so why am I still waiting?
and why do I still care?
I guess I’ll never give up on the one thing
I can’t go a day with out thinking about

But sometimes
I wish I would.

"I Hope for your sake, I miss you more than you miss me."

— "Melanie, Video Games, and a Slight Fear of Flying" - Man Overboard